A Reminder For This Season

I loathe this time of year, and it’s not because of seasonal affect disorder.

I'm allowing rest and release this holiday season. This time has always felt like the trauma Olympics. Unlike Christmases past which have been like literal fire on my skin. It's Christmas Eve in the Philippines right now and I am trying my hardest to stay safe. I plan on cleaning my room hardcore parkour today and intend on going to mass at 6pm just to sing Christmas music. /Singing brings me joy and if I have healed from my religious trauma. I identify as atheist/agnostic/Jesus was black and didn't do what these white Jesus followers want me to do. I plan on cleaning my plant area and invest in my space. I don't have friends who can take me in, which is why I crave a partner with an open family to do so. That's so sad to type out... But it's the truth! I want to be part of a “family” so bad. I only have my housemate, but we grow distant every year. I want to be a holiday nomad. Now that I'm a full-time sex coach, I hope I get the privilege to travel for the holidays. Just drop me off in an accessible town and leave me the fuck alone. Be kind to those who may have trauma around this time.